"I don't know if there is anything short of me dying that will solve this," I tell her with a shake of his head. There is no cure for the nightweed and the only thing that kept him sane back home had been the tellis extract. With that nowhere in sight, he's not sure what can be done, if anything.

"I'm not asking you to kill me before you start thinking that I'm not...that all right," I say hurriedly, shaking my head and meeting her eyes. "This is something I'll just have to live with, I think."

Maybe, since my access to the Waiting Place is cut off, I'll only see Demetrius. That wouldn't be so bad if it didn't happen often. "Distraction, I think, is what helped back home. If I didn't think about it, I didn't have seizures that sent me to -- to the Waiting Place."